Friday, 26 January 2018

Behaviour and Therapy in Samurai I: Musashi Miyamoto

Samurai I: Musashi Miyamoto (1954) is the first part of Hiroshi Inagaki's classic Samurai Trilogy. It tells the story of a man named Shinmen Takezo, played by Toshiro Mifune, a passionate young villager who goes to war for fame and fortune. Unfortunately he ends up on the losing side. He tries to go home but is faced with a travel ban. And even his best friend's family wants to kill him because he was on the losing side of the battle. So Takezo becomes an outlaw to survive. Now the priest Takuan must capture him...



Here's one scene that really sticks out.

Takuan is out to hunt Takezo, not for the bounty money but because Takezo is the descendant of a prominent line of samurai and wants to fulfil the man's potential. He sets out with Takezo's best friend's fiancee, Otsu (Kaoru Yachigusa), and they set up camp in the hills. Otsu plays her flute, which lures the nervous, desperate, hungry outlaw out to the campfire.



Takezo asked why Takuan is here, and Takuan replies to capture him. Takezo tells Takuan that he will never surrender.
"Are you trying to defeat yourself, too?", asks the priest?
"I don't mind dying in a good fight. But before I die, I will have some blood!", says Takezo stubbornly.
"What about your relatives", Takuan goes on.
"What relatives? They all hate me!", Takezo rages, close to bursting into tears. "Better off dead, all of them!"
"Even the women... and their children?", are Takuan's questions.
"I don't care! Let them all..." Takezo is unable to finish sentence, and is so ashamed that breaks down into heavy, healthy sobs, which is Takuan's chance to capture him and bring him into the village.


Even though he's exaggerating, and saying cruel words about his family. we sympathise with poor Takezo's plight. He's come back from war to find that his family and friends have betrayed him. Is it no wonder he goes on the run?
If you've ever been in a therapy session like I have, you'll end up saying some irrational things, too. And you'll have the therapist asking these very simple but very powerful questions, like Takuan's. Of course, unlike Takuan, no therapist has ever beaten me, nor suspended me by my hands from a tree, but the rest of this scene is familiar to my experience of being autistic.
I, like Takezo, am stubborn and hot tempered, and I don't listen to advice easily. So I sympathise with him all the more.

Later in the film, Takezo escapes with the help of Otsu, but Otsu is captured and brought to another castle. Takezo, grateful for her rescuing him, climbs up the castle wall to do the same.

Takuan appears behind him, and tells him that Otsu is safe in the castle. He takes Takezo there, but of course it's all a trick, and locks him in a room with a bunch of books to read. Takezo collapses in tears on the floor, and that's the last we see of him as we know him.






Three years pass, and when we next see Takezo, he is calm and restrained, more like Kyuzo from Seven Samurai than Kikuchiyo.

Behaviour is a theme and a coding of the film.

Part of what Takuan was doing when he captured Takezo the first time was analysing the consequence of his behaviour, which causes Takezo to start crying in shame , and is the reason why Takezo becomes so easy to capture.

Of course, it's not quite that. Takuan uses Otsu as bait, and forcibly locks Takezo away, which may have caused poor, lovesick Takezo to lapse into a serious depression for a few days. It's not as though he changed overnight. Knowing him, logic wouldn't set in so easily, whether or nor he knew he'd be killed if he escaped.

At the same time, Otsu is suggested as positive encouragement for Takezo to change his behaviour. She's a reward for him to become more 'civilised'. "She will wait", says Takuan before leaving Takezo for the next three years. Takezo is convinced that Takuan is lying, so what made him finally believe the priest? What made him stop doubting him?

What exactly caused Takezo to stop being so emotional? Especially a man of his temperament?

In a way, his reform is for the purpose of him being more acceptable to society. Although he's calmer in later movies, the old Takezo shines through as he is forced to make difficult decisions.

Takezo's previous behaviour is seen as 'abnormal' for a man, especially a man of his class. This therapy is both helpful and harmful to him. It stifles his feelings, which are healthy and appealing, but also helps him to become more disciplined.

I'm curious about this.

In the original text, Takezo reforms of his own will after learning that he is descended from noblemen, which humbles him almost immediately and facilitates his transformation. He reads the texts and reflects on his past, and on his own behaviour, and lets out his feelings, in private, before becoming a stoic years later. Plus he was not forcibly locked away like in the film.

This would be interesting for therapists to analyse.

Friday, 13 October 2017

My Vintage Protest, Continued

In my last blog post about this I suggested people adopting 1930's, 1940's and 1950's style clothes again.

I realized that it was wrong to force this on anybody, because this is the Land of the Free, after all, but I do want properly tailored 30's and 40's clothes to become more widely available, because online they only ever seem to sell 50's stuff.




I know that the fashion world is trying to please everybody but I feel like it needs to be more diverse... and good... and if only I could get my hands on the above items...

Now, what does His Majesty Distraction Trump mean by "Make America Great Again"?

Well, it doesn't really need to be explained further. The "Again" refers to some point in the past, most likely his childhood in the 50's. He reminisces fondly of the violence towards the black people in the 1960's, calling it "the good old days", as a black protester is dragged out of his rally.
He is trying to bring back the worst aspects of the past.



http://edition.cnn.com/2016/03/26/politics/donald-trump-when-america-was-great/index.html

Evidently, so are half his fans.

https://www.huffingtonpost.com/entry/americans-1950s-poll_us_580fcf0be4b08582f88c9575

https://www.theatlantic.com/politics/archive/2013/08/if-youre-an-old-republican-you-probably-want-to-go-back-to-the-50s/278864/

www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article.../Half-Americans-think-country-better-1950s.html

It's not just an issue of race, but of gender and class, too. The current Administration is taking away healthcare from millions of people, and taking away reproduction rights from women, which is also sending the country backwards about 65 years.

So I thought I'd keep showing off the better aspects of the past, specifically the clothes.




Yes, wanting to revive authentic 1930's fashion is part of my plan but I also think that people should have the widest choice possible in what they should wear. I don't care if Heidi Klum and Michael Kors would find it "costumey".

I've also been reading old books, watching old movies and cartoons (on a computer, which is kind of cheating), learning old dances and trying to listen to as much old music as possible.

Like Koichi Nishi from The Bad Sleep Well, one of my new favourite movies, it's difficult for me to go further, even though I want to. I would get distracted by some recent song and prefer to listen to that instead.
That will soon change, since I'm discovering more interesting old music all the time.

I hate to say it but making the country go backwards, as much as it sucks, appeals to half of my artistic tastes. So to make the journey interesting I try to make the most of it.

Watching the first eight Disney movies makes it fun, too. The first movie this year that I watched on the plane to America was Snow White and the Seven Dwarfs, a movie I continue to have a fondness for in terms of its visual style and artistic ambition.

Plus, it's not an inflammatory Occupy Democrats type of protest which screams my thoughts and makes me look bad to everyone.

Since I have dual British/American citizenship, the Administration doesn't affect me as much, so in a way I'm kind of fortunate. I guess I'm not as angry either.
I'm only able to visit the States on vacation so I don't get as much of an opportunity to protest this way.

I did, however, attend the Women's March in London.

"Boss Baby" refers to Donald Trump, of course, as an allusion to Alec Baldwin playing two similar characters, on Saturday Night live and in the Dreamworks movie.

Friday, 6 October 2017

An Autistic Person's Review of Gwoemul

Bong Joon-ho's 'The Host' ("Gwoemul"/"Monster") is one of my favourite movies. Often described as 'Gojira' meets 'Little Miss Sunshine', this is one of those movies that's difficult to categorize. It is completely unique. When I first saw the film, it was like nothing I had ever seen before.


In 2000, an arrogant American scientist orders his Korean assistant to dump all of the expired formaldehyde into the sewer, and all of the toxic waste goes into the river.

Six years later, the product of the chemical waste, a mutant creature the size of a bus, starts chasing and eating people. Two men arrive on the scene to help. One is Donald White (David Anselmo), an American soldier living in Seoul with a Korean girlfriend. The other man is the protagonist, Park Gang-du (Song Kang-ho).









Gang-du is one of the most unique heroes in cinema. He is the clumsy, slow-witted- but not stupid- eldest son of a working class snack vendor, and he has an undisclosed neurological condition which gives him social ineptitude and mild narcolepsy.



So he's not autistic, but autistic people can relate to him.*

He also has a teenage daughter, Hyun-seo (Ko Ah-sung) and he only seems to be wide awake when his fatherly instincts kick in.
When Gang-du accidentally causes Hyun-seo to be carried off by the monster, he, his frazzled father (Byun Hee-bong), his alcoholic brother (Park Hae-il) and his hesitant archer sister (Bae Du-na) all believe her to be dead. But one night, Gang-du gets a call and finds that she's still alive.
Unfortunately, no one believes poor Gang-du and continuously treat him as insane, so he and his family take it into their hands to try and save her. 


Explaining the situation to doctors while you have a mouth full of phone doesn't quite help your case, salangseuloun.
Action Family Team, assemble!
Meanwhile, down in the sewer where she is trapped by the monster, Hyun-seo, growing in courage, fights to survive.

This movie has everything: action, comedy, family drama, political and social satire, and strong central characters. It's beautifully filmed, and director Bong Joon-ho really knows how to use colour in his film.
The acting is excellent. Song Kang-ho is wonderful as always in the role of Gang-du, and so are his co-stars, Byun hee-bong, Ko Ah-sung, Park Hae-il and Bae Du-na. Yoon Je-moon is near unrecognizable as a vagrant. And it's got a cute small boy, too.
Bong Joon-ho's quality as a director varies wildly, but I think this film is his best. It will make you laugh, cry, scream and cheer with delight.

If you are autistic like me or have any other special needs, you can definitely relate to Gang-du, who despite his social problems has a massive heart. He's childlike, has little sense of social awareness, he's forgetful and a klutz, he makes a lot of mistakes and has guilty meltdowns. In other words, like me.

This movie is good to watch for Autism Parents, too, who will be able to relate to Hee-bong, Gang-du's father. Unlike Autism Parents, who rightly regret nothing for how their children turned out, Hee-bong feels like it was his fault that Gang-du turned out such a mess. But an Autism Parent would know his experience. He gets frustrated with his son sometimes, but loves him, and is seen comforting him at Hyun-seo's funeral in the gymnasium, and vowing to protect him when the authorities come to take him away.


Awww...
Awww...


* I wouldn't put past the possibility of him having a food intolerance. At the beginning he eats a fried squid. Later he complains that his skin feels "all squirmy". Then when he's eating, he scratches his back until it's red and raw. I know that lately my whole body gets itchy from eating the wrong thing. Maybe he's just allergic to bread or seafood, who knows. Just a speculation. Hee-bong blames it on poor hygiene.



Saturday, 20 May 2017

I got interviewed in iNews!

https://inews.co.uk/essentials/news/uk/tamsin-parker-woman-aspergers-i-cant-stereotyped-anyone/

When I made a film called 'Force of Habit', it was shortlisted for the Autism Uncut awards ceremony. I got in touch with a journalist from iNews and she interviewed me over the phone about myself and my influences.

I saw myself in the most unlikely movie character and look where it got me!

I was interviewed over the phone and I answered my questions carefully.

Funny story: the interviewer asked me a question over the phone about this picture I did of Berenger from 'Rhinoceros'.




And she asked, "Is this you?"

My answer was "Kind of", but I made the picture with the intention of autistic people relating to him.

But Tuco Ramirez was the one I saw the most of myself reflected in. My fiery temper, my unique way of doing things, my broad, shambling body language, the way I spoke and acted without thinking first; sure, I fell in love with him, but it had dawned on me that day in May 2015 that I didn't just love Tuco, I was him.



This is the interview in print.


Sunday, 23 October 2016

Burning Bridges by Amy Shindler- Theatre Review

Burning Bridges stars a woman with autism. That was what intrigued me into seeing this play, since I have Asperger's Syndrome myself.
The trouble is, the story doesn't actually centre around her.

25-year-old Sarah arrives at her sister Kate's home so she can get back on her feet after a bout of offscreen online gambling. Obsessed with Tamagotchi and One Direction to the point where she has a meltdown when both those worlds come crashing down, she turns the worlds of her sister and brother in law upside down, even though they don't make any attempt to try and understand her. Why put up fences when you can build bridges, indeed?


Sarah, who is bizarre and unique even for an autistic woman, ends up building too good of a bridge when she gets uncomfortably close with her brother in law, Dan, and invites him to a drinking game while her sister is away, inevitably causing drama between the three people. Not just tension, but drama.

It's never shown what happened between Sarah and Dan, but she claimed she was taken advantage of to cover up the truth about them.

We learn that Sarah was put in a care home when she was a child and resents Kate, whom she had previously loved, for sending her there after the death of their mother. But it turned out that their mother decided to put her in the care home and, in true Theatre 503 tradition, tries unsuccessfully to kill herself. And yet Kate and Dan dispute about whether or not the affair between himself and Sarah was consensual or not, if indeed it ever happened. Kate questions herself after Sarah reveals that she has the ability to lie.

The play revolves less around Sarah and more around Kate and Dan's relationship. Kate loses her job spending too much time looking after Sarah, who is shown to cause problems in their relationship, despite not being a bad person, just clueless about other people's feelings.

Sarah herself is interesting. She's smart, but not a savant. She has the typical autistic trait of being completely blunt and seemingly insensitive towards other people's feelings. She seems independent and together, yet is unable to take care of herself. She's surprisingly flirtatious, though it's possible that she's copying what she's seen other girls do. Her personality is almost inconsistent. It's as though Shindler knows someone who's autistic yet has not quite grasped their experiences as an autistic person, and she feels more comfortable writing about the experiences of more "normal" people. Probably due to the fact that not many autistic playwrights get their works produced.

There wasn't anywhere in the play which showed which sensations- which sights, sounds, smells, etc.- Sarah couldn't bear. Sensory sensitivity is a common and consistent trait in people with Asperger's Syndrome. There are people who can't stand the feel of velvet, or the texture of certain foods, or loud consistent noises. I don't remember any of that being discussed in the play.

The actors were excellent, especially Rae Brogan as Sarah, despite weaknesses in the script.

Friday, 3 June 2016

The Green Hornet: My Entry Into Soul Searching


When Seth Rogen and Evan Goldberg's version of 'The Green Hornet' debuted on screens in 2011, I was disappointed by all the bad reviews, all the hatred it got from devoted fanboys of the TV series who whined, "Oh, Seth Rogen raped my childhood for his own amusement!" or some nonsense like that.

I admit, the film wasn't perfect. Especially in its tone and pacing. And some awkward moments. But it was fun enough, it brought something new and different to the superhero genre, the dialogue was snappy (I still sometimes say "Go!" the way Britt does in his interview with Lenore Case.) I even got to meet Edward James Olmos at MCM Comic Con London, wearing my Green Hornet costume and he said he liked working on the film.
More than ever, this film is relevant in its presentation of the consequences of abuse of power in journalism.

But that's all beside the point.

There was one bit where Britt and Kato have escaped Chudnofsky and his men, and the whole time before Britt was panicking and fleeing like the useless brat he is. He did absolutely nothing. And then he mocks Kato and calls him "baby", which is exactly how Britt had been acting.
I was just as ashamed and annoyed as the rest of the audience while watching it. But I realised during that scene, this had been the exact same attitude that I had towards my sister. I would feel criticised for the mistakes I'd make, and had blamed all my negative qualities on her. Because I felt that she was stronger, smarter and just plain better than me. And I felt inferior because of my social dysfunction. My Asperger's Syndrome. My slight dyspraxia. And as soon as I realised I was behaving this way towards my sister, I stopped blaming her for qualities that were no-one else's but my own.

So, The Green Hornet had been one of the first films where I recognised an aspect of myself within a film character.

The film is, as Rogen said, about jealousy and insecurity, qualities we all recognise more than we'd like to admit. The hero is a loser with daddy issues. The villain is a neurotic has-been with a midlife crisis.

So it didn't exactly cause a full spiritual awakening, but it was definitely a step on the right path.

You needn't be ashamed of this film, Seth, once you realise what the film meant to me.

Wednesday, 27 January 2016

Tuco the Trendsetter

This summer, warm reds, browns and everything in between were in fashion. Normally these would be autumn colours, which is a curious thing to sell in July. 
Maybe someone somewhere decided it was a pretty color to sell in clothing chains everywhere. And I mean everywhere: Topshop, Zara, Banana Republic, TJ Max, Forever 21, you name it! 
All the stores were unseasonably selling this color palette!
Harper's Bazaar says, "Mustard, ocher, brown, and orange were splashed all over the fall runways." http://www.harpersbazaar.com/fashion/trends/a11072/how-to-wear-color-0615/

weconnectfashion.com apparently predicted this. "Rust presents itself as the most forward fashion color in Desert Neutrals." And they're right. It is a very versatile palette that can be worn all year.


The one on the far right is probably the best example of what I'm talking about. Also, IT'S ON THE FRIGGIN' RUNWAY! How cool is that?!





It had usually been displayed in palettes involving white, brown, tan, sandy yellow, rusty reds and deep, rich burgundy reds. White tops on rust-coloured skirts or trousers, or vice versa, maybe adding sandy yellow to the mix of fashion. 






I owe this palette to a certain bandito character I fell hopelessly for this year. 




It was October before last when I first laid eyes on Tuco
Ramírez. A University classmate had shown us the final shootout scene from the 1966 Film The Good, The Bad And The Ugly as inspiration for creating a short animation. this was after  Ramírez's Actor's, Eli Wallach, died of natural causes at 98. Watching all his roles last year was a missed opportunity, and Tuco  was the first role I ever saw from him.
The bandito had me entranced. I watched his frantic eyes darting back and forth, gradually widening at each sign of dangers, and I found myself seriously wanting him to live. Long story short, he did ... sort of.
The beautiful, expressive eyes bugged me for months. Wallach was unconventionally handsome in his younger days, and the eyes had it.
Seven months later, I watched the film and properly got to know Ramírez, falling in love with character and actor alike. He was wild, energetic, hilarious and sympathetic. He became one of my favourite movie characters of all time.
To me it was unfair that Clint Eastwood’s Blondie got all the attention, when Tuco was the interesting one, and I daresay the sole protagonist of the film. As a foolish, rambunctious idiot myself, I identified personally with this character. I wanted to dress like him. 
So I found myself tracking down the pants, wearing rings in a similar way he did, and finding a jacket like his. I asked Spylight for advice but their search result was too expensive. I found myself finding more or less his palette, though.  Nice, reddish brown short dresses to go with those brownish trousers, white tank tops, brown jackets, etc.
I didn’t have to dress exactly like him. These were bright, bold, flamboyant colours, perfect for one so fiery and energetic. That reddish brown jacket of his was a lovely colour. It wasn’t as though he randomly nicked it and thought, “Wow, this jacket looks great with my complexion” !  It was a scruffy jacket, just like the rest of him. dirty, ripped at the shoulder and in the back. His whole outfit was intended to look run-down and dumpy.
That didn’t stop me. I wanted those colours so I could display myself for the oafish, confrontational oddball I knew I was inside.

Damn, all those clothes looked good.

They looked even better with black boots and a thin black choker.

Who'd have thought- a character with the designation, "The Ugly" would have inspired the palette for women’s summer fashion, huh?
I mean, Blondie contributed a bit to the summer fashion as well, with all the ponchos and that.  So why Tuco? Why does his influence on the fashion world mean so much to me? Because he has a larger than life personality that I can relate to and emulating his style makes me feel comfortable with being myself. And in all honesty, he's the easiest character ever to dress up as. 

That's the thing. I do find myself a trendsetter. I obsess over a certain palette or style of clothing and suddenly it's in fashion! Spooky, huh? 

Maybe it should be Tamsin the Trendsetter?

And weconnectfashion.com may have forecasted the trend, so why did it become a trend at the same time I properly got into Spaghetti Westerns and developed such a liking for this rascal? Maybe it was fated? Who knows?


That said, I'm proud of him.
If you're looking for ways to wear rusty red in spite of this fella, check out websites like this one:

http://www.fashionfademagazine.co.uk/2015/07/ways-to-wear-hot-colour-trend-rust.html

Here's what it says: This burnt orange shade looks amazing with denim, white, tan and plenty of other pretty summer colours too. Despite being a seemingly autumnal shade, it seems like this colour trend can be worked all year round.